A friend called me from a worksite in the Norwegian forest. Late thirties, former rugby prop, built like a wall that had stopped being maintained. He was angry. Complaining about the terrain, the wet moss, the rocks, the cold, the long walks. He spoke about the forest as if it were hostile, as if it had singled him out.

In the same breath, he said it was one of the most beautiful places he'd ever seen. Quiet and still, almost unreal.

The contradiction went unnoticed by him.

The forest wasn't the problem. The place was flawless. What hurt was his body. Twenty kilos too heavy, years without training, knees carrying weight they were never meant to and a back doing work muscles had abandoned. Of course it hurt. Of course every step felt like resistance.

But blaming the forest was easier than admitting neglect.

Pain asks for a cause. The closest one is rarely the real one.

It's easier to believe that life happened to you than to admit you participated in its shape. Timing is convenient. So are parents, systems, luck, history, location. All of them absorb weight without asking anything back. Responsibility doesn't.

That pattern repeats everywhere. Parents are blamed for what they failed to provide, long after adulthood removed their authority. Systems are blamed for unfairness while others, operating under the same constraints, manage to build something workable. Technology is blamed for distraction, as if the phone reaches for itself. Bosses, partners, genetics, economy. The target changes. The function doesn't.

Blame moves the weight away from you. That's why it feels safe. It allows anger without obligation and explanation without exposure. It reduces tension immediately. It also removes leverage just as quickly.

When the cause sits outside you, so does the ability to change anything.

That's the trade people rarely acknowledge. Blame preserves comfort at the cost of agency. You get to stay innocent, but you also stay stuck.

Responsibility isn't inspiring. It's heavy. It collapses excuses and leaves you alone with the evidence of your choices. It removes the buffer between who you are and what your life looks like.

There's no requirement that the world treat you fairly, no guarantee of help, and no obligation that things work out. That reality is unpleasant, which is why many people negotiate with it endlessly rather than accept it.

Waiting for conditions to improve often becomes a long-term strategy for avoiding authorship.

Responsibility is often described as empowering. That framing skips the unpleasant part. Before it gives anything, it takes something away. The stories that made stagnation tolerable, the ability to point outward, the comfort of believing someone else should have fixed this by now.

What remains is smaller and sharper. Your actions, your omissions, the habits you reinforced, the maintenance you postponed.

A messy room stops being a personality trait and becomes a decision repeated. A neglected body stops being bad luck and starts resembling avoidance. Time wasted stops being stress relief and starts looking like refusal.

Even small things become difficult to ignore once you stop framing them as things that just happened.

Owning responsibility doesn't make life easier. It makes it more exact. You lose the relief of plausible deniability. You gain nothing immediately except clarity, and clarity is uncomfortable when it arrives late.

Even then, control remains limited. Events still happen, outcomes still surprise, effort doesn't guarantee reward, and responsibility doesn't grant immunity from loss. What it removes is confusion about authorship.

You may not control what happens, but you can't pretend you're absent from how you respond, what you repeat, or who you become as a result. That story is being written either way.

The uncomfortable truth isn't that life is unfair. It's that blame lets you live as a character in your own story instead of its author.

And once you see that, it becomes difficult to keep blaming the forest for a body you refused to carry.